Finding Krista

You know what sucks?  Trying to find cute clothes that fit my body.  I'm an extra curvy girl with boobs and a smaller waistline, so things that fit on top don't necessarily fit me on the bottom.  Not to regurgitate what every other blog about fashion says, but it's really hard finding cute, stylish clothes in my size.  Now I'm pretty proud of the fact that at my heaviest I wore a size 22 and I am down to a pretty solid 16 (sometimes 14 when I can discipline myself to eat better and do more exercising).  Still, I'm not a mainstream size, especially at the bust line.  I do a lot of online window shopping and since computers are evil beings that track what you search for, I started getting Facebook ads for a site called Gwynnie Bee .  I ignored them at first, as I do most ads, but one day they had a really cute dress on the ad and I thought, ok I'll check this out.   They offer a free 30 day trial of 1,2, or 3 items out at a time so I signed up. ...

I've seen a few posts online where people are complaining about the New Year Resolution people who go to the gym for a week and then quit and how they're looking forward to getting their gym back.   This pisses me off.  I'm not skinny.  I've never been skinny.  But a few years ago I did make an effort to become a healthier woman.  I lost some weight and I've mostly maintained that loss.  But I haven't been great at the maintenance.  So I look at the new year as a chance to start over.  Wash it away and say, this year I'm going to try harder.  This might mean that I finally decided to use my gym membership that comes with my health insurance plan.  But if you look at me with derision, like I'm taking up your valuable space at "your" gym, then yeah, I'm probably not going to be inclined to come back after a week or so.  So maybe instead of being a smug a-hole about "your" gym, you should try and encourage that person who resolved ...

Welcome to 2014. 2013 was a hell of a year.  Not a great one, but not the worst year ever.  I had my share of ups and downs.  I had a tiny (massive) freak out at the beginning of last year because I kept feeling like I was supposed to set all of these goals and make shit happen, when in reality, all I wanted was to find a little peace.   And so, in my own little way, I did.  I finished a Goodreads challenge, which I started at 150 books, then as I realized I was going to smash through that pretty quickly, I re-set to 365.  I ended the year with a documented 375 books.  That's only the books I logged in as completed.  I read more, but I chose not to include short stories or novellas.  If it only took me 15 minutes to read it, it didn't make the log.  I'm doing it again this year and I may write about some of those here if the mood strikes. I didn't spend as much time as I wanted to with the boyfriend, but I did get three weeks with ...

Day 1:  Your Current Relationship. If you're reading me, you likely know me.  I don't really have strangers pop in over here to visit.  Geoff is a subject I talk about quite a bit.  It's funny, I don't want to be one of those people that only writes about one aspect of their life, but our relationship and the distance between us is a huge part of my identity.  Being a long distance couple means that spontaneity is rare, so my days are portioned out to make sure we are able to contact one another in some way, shape, or form. I could gush, but I won't.  He's far from perfect (he would tell you otherwise), but he's without a doubt one of the best men I've ever known.  There was something about him from the time we first met that made me feel like I belonged.  We managed to create something even at a distance at a time when long distance was truly a challenge in the mid 90's that has endured throughout the years. Geoff makes sense to me in a way...

I like a writing challenge.  It gives me something to talk about, even if I don't think I have anything to say! The boyfriend will be here in 36 days, so this might help distract me and keep me from going crazy until he gets here...so check it all out, starting tomorrow!!

I'm not typically a creative party person at all, but today I had a lot of fun creating something that was a little out of the ordinary... One of my dearest friends, a woman I met on a long distance relationship forum, is getting married next month.  She and I were actually able to meet up in person last November, which was amazing.  You spend so much time online with certain people, and finally being with them face to face is much like a reunion with an old childhood friend.  So when she announced the wedding, and since we have our little online group who wouldn't be able to attend, I thought why not try and do something that we could all get involved with.  And so, the online bridal shower - games only edition - was born. I started out with a pretty basic "Who Knows the Bride Best", which included the following questions: What is the wedding date?  How did she meet the groom?  Where did they go on their first date?  What does she think ...

So, it's my birthday.  Thirty-five years.  I can't even comprehend this.  Some days, I feel so much older and other days I can't believe how much time has passed.  I was talking about the last time I had been to Busch Gardens and it was 20 years ago.  TWENTY.  I graduated from high school 17 years ago.  I met Geoff 17 years ago.  I've been in my chosen career 13 years. 14 years ago, I celebrated 21 with a newer friend and spent the next 10 years celebrating with him.  He died 3 years ago, a few weeks before our birthday. It always hits me hard, but this year it hit me earlier.  Last year I felt more at ease with my birthday, and this year I don't even want to think about it. Screw cake and ice cream - I want a big bottle of wine and to listen to this song on repeat.   Wax is dripping from the frosting of the cake.  Come on girl buckle up, and don't hesitate.  Take a deep breath, and blow 'em all away....